August 10, 2010

Random

I can't be.
I'm full of unforgivable love. Full of sincere thoughts, full of care for things I can't control. I substitute my true self with everything I do. I'm not real anymore, just full of shit.
Another night, another whiskey.
I want to sleep no more. My dreams are those of misery, of loss. Every night, I have to let go of what matters most. And it just laughs, smiles with this damn smile of satisfaction, because I have to give up.
Why can't you just go?
I'm a fucking disaster. A tragedy waiting to happen. Thinking straight is not possible, so I drift to long lost feelings, unstoppable thoughts. I'm in a state of constant self-distraction from myself. From whatever it is, I pretend to be.

August 6, 2010

Random

Before you're ready to create something truly altering, you need to realize that nothing matters. You can't change the world if you care too much for it.